Ever since I joined Campus for Christ at my university, there has been a pressure on me to push myself and tell the student body about Jesus. My God. And like many, I was afraid. Of what? Afraid of stepping into a world where I would be asked questions and I would possibly have no answer. Afraid of being criticized of my faith. Not criticized as in finding fault in "Christianity" but rather that I do not know what I believe in simply because I am unable to give them a satisfying answer to their questions.
So why am I afraid of being criticized for my lack of answers?
I've always been one who plans out my day before it even started. Makes sense? Let's say I was to meet up with a person I haven't met before or in fact a friend I haven't seen for a long time. Before the meeting, I would already be planning in how to initiate the conversation, what to say, what I expect them to say, etcetera in order to avoid awkward moments. So, when I don't have the "right" words to say, I panic and I start questioning what I believe in.
Anyway, lately I've sat down and asked myself over and over again: why am I in love with you my Lord? I mean, I have not experienced the same situations or at least close to it, of what my Christian friends have experienced that they claim to be their "life changing moment." So, what about me? I know I believe in You, but why despite my absense of GRAND life changing events?
Maybe it's the word GRAND that should be examined. And I realize that I do not need something BIG to happen to me in order for me to know that God loves me. God shows His love in different ways...and I'll share with you mine...In fact this will be the first time I've ever really shared it with anyone.
I will share with you my testimony in the next couple of days as time is not on my side tonight. But I do hope you'll stay with me on this blog and read it with me.
